Fearfully & Wonderfully Made

Okay, so I weighed in on Saturday and I lost 2.6 pounds. yay. Back on track. Enjoying eating healthier in general and making different choices. The topic was on portions and the meeting was really encouraging. I don't have any exercise clothes so I bought myself a couple tops today that were on clearance ($5 each!) Yay! While I was at it I noticed I'm definitely a size or 2 smaller (depending on what I tried). I found a dress to wear to David and Courtney's wedding... it looks good now so I'm imagining how much even better it will look by the wedding in April.

Mexican Bean Soup by Jennifer Napier Put the following in the crock pot: 2 jars of pinto beans 2 jars of black beans 1 can of garbanzo beans 1/2 onion chopped 1 jar of medium salsa 1 packet of taco seasoning 2 garlic cloves minced top with shredded cheese, light sour cream and crushed tortilla chips. Also great served over brown rice or quinoa.

Ups and downs this week. I had been doing incredibly well and then hit a rough spot last night. I ate a bunch of stuff I didn't have the points for and just kept eating. I wasn't even hungry. I was just upset and so I ate. Today I reeled it in a bit. Protein shake for breakfast. HUGE salad with chicken for lunch. Popcorn and fruit for snacks. Dinner of Mexican bean soup. I did Zumba as well. So I exercised twice this week. Better than last week where exercise was 0. So, hey, I'm working on it. I do much better when I journal my points.

One of my favorite things about my week starting on the week-ends (Friday)... in terms of weigh-ins and tracking...is that I get a good kick-start for the week-end. I know I can splurge some but I don't tend to overdo it... I made a big turkey dinner tonight. It was fun... it felt like Thanksgiving in February. But without the overeating. I enjoyed my food and i felt content, not stuffed. New thing to try. frozen fruit in my water for flavor.... mmmmm

Much better day. Drank a lot of water. Tracked what I ate. Avoided extra sugar. Sugar definitely sends me spiraling out of control. Also realized I was full quicker than I thought I was. My stomach must be shrinking.

When out of control the best thing to avoid being around is cupcakes. My emotions ran away for the past two weeks. Between my brother's wedding, Valentine's Day, and Samuel's birthday.... and all the emotions of the events... well, let's just say I fell off the horse. So now I'm getting back in the saddle. I didn't plan to fail but without a plan I did fail. So now I am coming up with a plan. It's funny how when you're disciplined everything seems to fall in line... you drink your water, eat well, exercise, get sleep. But somehow when you don't sleep, you eat more sugar, stop drinking water... It just all falls apart. The good thing is I realize how much my perfectionism plays into this. I was so upset that I missed a couple of days of journaling what i ate and drank that I decided to just not mess up my book by not having it in order... that I just stopped journaling. Crazy me. I'd rather have a messy journal than a messed up plan... But anyway....

Oh man. I didn't eat great this past week. a combination of not drinking enough water... eating sugar which triggered more eating and especially craving sugar.... and pure exhaustion. I didn't get to go to a WW meeting because I was busy on Friday taking Samuel to radiation and then CHKD. So I need to go get weighed and see what the "damage" is. I don't even feel motivated to change. I just want to eat sugar and sleep. I'm so tired and so emotional and weary. It's hard to fight my feelings. It's hard to take time for myself. No chance to exercise. Blah blah blah. Well, today is a new day. And this is the point of WW... it's there to help keep me accountable and encourage me to change and learn moderation and discipline. It's not a diet. It's a lifestyle. And this is my reality... there will be ups and downs and it's OKAY!!! So, to get back on the horse...

I haven't really had a chance to work-out lately. Being sick really took it out of me.... But I did dance for hours last night at my brother's wedding... so I guess that counts for something, right? There's a "ballet sculpt" class at the YMCA... I look forward to taking that.

Okay I've lost more than 5% of my body weight. Hurray! One of the things I've been trying to learn is what treats are worth it... And I don't just mean point wise but what will taste good and I won't feel yucky after eating it. My taste has changed. I definitely am liking certain things more and other things less!