Fearfully & Wonderfully Made

So I've experienced week 2. A lot more energy which has been amazing! I've had my moments of fighting sadness and depression, which kind of surprised me. It's amazing what you feel when you're not eating your feelings. When you actually let things surface. I realized I was really upset when I got Samuel's INTACT clinic appointment reminder. INTACT stands for Individuals Thriving After Cancer Treatment. Most of his appointments don't knock for me a loop but this one does. We have to go over all the effects of the chemo and radiation. It can feel very scary and overwhelming and make me anxious about the future. But God doesn't call me to live in the future. He says He is I AM! Which means I need to be here. Right now. Present. Right where I am. So I had to work through that. I also went to a banquet dinner this week. I took the pears and blue cheese off my salad and ate the spring mix without dressing. I passed on the crostini and the hot rolls. I ate ...

So it's been 2 years since I posted  and my health journey continues. Full of ups and downs. Full of moving forward and setbacks. I'm grateful to say because of the concentrated fruits and veggies I take I have great cholesterol, blood pressure and am overall exhibit good health markers- thyroid, liver, kidneys, etc. Recently though my sugars have suggested what I already knew. My body is fighting becoming diabetic. It's revealing the love of sweet tea, soda and all things junk. And let's face it my addiction- sugar, sugar, sugar. So I'm taking back the steering wheel and have given up sugar, bread, pasta. Yesterday, I did splurge on a chocolate milk. Lord, help me when I'm in Italy next month... The truth is I knew I was on a crash course collision. I could feel the dizziness, shakiness, irregular heartbeat and sweating. I knew what I was consuming was in direct conflict with what I should be eating.... and yet, the stress, taking the time to prep, an...

Over a week and a half in and I'm down 8 pounds. I know today's a special day with it being the twins birthday so I'm trying to set myself up for success. This means dark chocolate and macadamia nuts when everyone else is splurging on ice-cream or cake etc. I might be adventurous and make some kind of paleo/primal cake tonight. We'll see how long today is out. Lunch at Chick-fil-a and a trip to the zoo... oh what fun! Looking forward  to learning how to manage around special times.

I have been frustrated with myself at my inability to be consistent but thankful for persevering through the ups and downs of the past several weeks. I lost 2 pounds at my weigh in. I knew I had gained weight last week... but I didn't weigh in because I went out of town. So I've really probably last 3 pounds or so. Yay! I've been trying to rethink what I traditionally eat. If I want cereal at night for dinner I have that. I love having p.b. with graham crackers instead of a "regular" dessert. Some times a bowl of home-made on the stove oatmeal with craisins and walnuts and brown sugar is more filling and satisfying than other equal point meals. I try to make sure I have enough protein... one of my favorite ways is Greek yogurt. Mmmm. So good. I love Chobani's Greek yogurt, blueberry and strawberry are my favorite.

I lost this past weigh-in. Not much... but moving in the downward is wonderful. When I went into the hospital to get checked out (I have a fever & strep-very bad) the doctor didn't believe I weighed as much as I did... He said I looked a lot smaller then what I weighed. That was a nice feeling. I told him I'm doing weight watchers and that I'm trying to lose weight. He was very encouraging. I'm glad I "look" smaller. I was tempted to feel discouraged yesterday by the small result but I'm learning... I'm making better choices. I'm exercising. I'm aware of what I put in my mouth and yet I still enjoy life. I had cheesecake on my birthday yesterday. I feel like I'm losing inches more than I am weight. My clothes are loose and I've gone down two sizes. And more importantly, I'm taking care of my health and setting a good example for my kids. I have more energy and I feel better! So yay!

I lost weight last weigh in. I'm down a total of 16 pounds... down 32 pounds if compared to my starting pre-pregnancy weight with Peter. Whew-I could not have done this apart from God's help and sustaining power! The last several days have been crazy. With Mike having been gone and Samuel in the hospital and then Mike getting home yesterday and the birth of my niece... well, I've been grabbing and going with food. I've made overall good choices but I haven't been keeping track of my points and there has NOT been time to exercise. I will see what the scale says this Friday....

Okay, so I weighed in on Saturday and I lost 2.6 pounds. yay. Back on track. Enjoying eating healthier in general and making different choices. The topic was on portions and the meeting was really encouraging. I don't have any exercise clothes so I bought myself a couple tops today that were on clearance ($5 each!) Yay! While I was at it I noticed I'm definitely a size or 2 smaller (depending on what I tried). I found a dress to wear to David and Courtney's wedding... it looks good now so I'm imagining how much even better it will look by the wedding in April.

Okay I've lost more than 5% of my body weight. Hurray! One of the things I've been trying to learn is what treats are worth it... And I don't just mean point wise but what will taste good and I won't feel yucky after eating it. My taste has changed. I definitely am liking certain things more and other things less!

Weighed in today.... I've lost a total of 11 pounds ! Wahoo. It was a rough week being sick and in addition eating too much sugar earlier in my week.... but I lost 3.4 pounds this week. So yay! Feeling motivated.

So, I'm down a total of 7.6 pounds. That's a 5 pound bag of sugar and 2 POUNDS of BUTTER! Whew-hoo! The weight doesn't seem that much but it's the way that my clothes are fitting that gets me excited. I also feel better in general physically. In addition I'm learning how to have treats and enjoy food in moderation. I'm just feeling more mindful of what's going in my mouth. I've started back to Zumba at the Y... and I'm loving it! I made blueberry muffins with a Fiber One Mix and bulked it up with extra blueberries. Everyone loved them! They were super yum while still being super good for you!