It's been amazing all the different things that have come to the surface since I'm no longer eating my feelings. I find myself trying to find new ways to numb and distract myself. Mainly Facebook/Instagram/Pinterest. So I'm having to set a timer and let myself be on for 10 minutes and when the timer goes off I get off. I'm not going to replace a bad habit with another bad habit! I also see myself wanting to turn to my phone to kill time instead of doing the things I need to be doing... it's like I'm bored while being busy! It's been so interesting being raw and vulnerable. I feel like I'm completely open to any kind of attack. I've had to keep turning to the Lord and asking Him to be my covering. To be my shield. My protector and defender. My help in time of need. Yesterday I was down for the count. Peter had come with a virus/bug and passed it on to me and Mike. Thankful I was able to sleep a lot of the day. I chose to still do my fuelings and l...
Emotional eating is a huge struggle for me. I feel like I'm doing fine coping with all the stress of my life... dealing with anxiety and at times panic and depression... but I'm not. How am I coping with it? I'm eating. I'm eating through the pain. Eating through the sadness. Eating through the loneliness. Eating through the regret and then I'm loathing. I loathe myself for doing this. I don't want to overeat. The problem is I don't even feel "full". I never even feel stuffed. I feel like I could just keep eating and eating and eating. It makes me so mad. I can do really well and exercise and take my vitamins and drink water. I can be sure to eat a large salad with tons of fresh vegetables and a delicious balanced breakfast, etc... but when it all comes down to it I will eat the wrong things later as an attempt to satiate the pain inside me. I will eat the goodies and sweets that I know are calorie loaded. It breaks my heart. this...
With all the food, mostly sugar, of the holidays I've been probably gaining pounds this holiday instead of losing. Sigh. I am addicted to sugar. Truth be told. There it is. Sugar is such a weak spot spot for me. I love cookies and all the holiday sweets.. the delicious fudge and assortment of pies and treats. It's bad. So, I'm just going to let myself accept, that yes, I've had sugar and in a few days it will be time to flush and detox it all out of my system. With so many detox diets and systems where does one start? I've been pregnant or nursing so long that I've been hardly had time to do a detox. Do you start with a liver detox or colon? Or just eliminate sugar? Do you do a food detox or just use supplements? All I know for sure is that I want to drink a ton of water and pump out all the crap that's in me. So I'm praying that God would show me a healthy way to purge all the junk and clean out my system. Do you know any good detoxes? What do yo...
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